The philosopy of death in detail

Death? I'm afraid of it. Last summer i ended up depressed and shaking every evening, just because of it. I'm rather neutral about it now.

I can't form an exact thought on it. But I've met a guy with many near death experiences and told me this:

Death, is an angel of God. When you see the light, he's the first one you'll meet in heaven. Death isn't qruel, scary or something as most people see and say about it.

I don't say i believe it but i can't say it can't be true. After all, nobody can tell what's death exactly and what's going to happen after it.

And there are signs that there's life after death. I mean, i've heard many stories about people seeing the light, a dark tunnel, with light at the end of it. They're send back. Their lifes on Earth weren't over yet. That's what has been said.

The reason i'm afraid of death is bacause i'm unsure on many things. Girls, friendship, calling somebody, talking to strangers, deadly deceases (I.E. Cancer), death. I want to be sure on things. Then i can rest. But i possibly won't rest on that death part. Not until i've seen the light myself or when i pass away.

But got some much things to do in my life, like getting a girlfriend and studying Animation and Games. Maybe raise some kids and be a grandfather someday too. Got so much i want to do in my life too! Bungeejumping, traveling, the whole bunch! So, i guess i won't worry about it until time comes!

Jam it back in, in the dark.