Charisma

I'm a fraud. I'm not naturally charismatic but I know how to look it when the time is right. When I'm with good friends or in a comfortable situation, I'm open and gregarious, liking to socialize and engage myself with people. But here's one thing: it didn't come naturally and I really believe it's over time and practice that I've developed it.

My personal theory for me is that it's really all about reading people and adapting to different situations. I know how to engage and draw in certain people, whether it's my dad's friends or a group of my high school buddies, or someone I meet in class. So I'm not sure I can label this as true charisma, since I'm still pretty awkward at times, but if that definition is true, then yes over time and "practice", sometimes I can naturally engage and influence people.

I think most intelligent people who have a fair amount of social decorum possess some amount of charisma. Only the fuckers who don't live a shit what other people think of them and yet still draws people in like moths to a flame are truly charismatic. Am I that? Nope. But the effect can be the same with certain people.

This post makes me sound like a sneaky bitch but I just think that over time, I've realized what works in society and sometimes it's not always the extremes of our true personalities. My GFF persona is more along the lines of how I truly am.

Jam it back in, in the dark.