Nobody could ever love the real me

It's all a matter of being what you want to be. If that is you and you don't want to change, then don't change. You can only be who you want to be.

But if you don't like these qualities about yourself, then make an effort to try to change them. Personally, I HATE being around pessimistic people. I avoid them at all costs. I'm a very optimistic person, and I hate being around people who try to bring me down. They can't bring me down, but it's annoying getting in arguments all the time about a glass half full/half empty approach toward things.

It's all a matter of what makes you happy. If you want to be happier in life then change it. There is no point in living life IMO unless you are happy. What else is there to live for? I mean seriously, who wants to walk around gloomy all the time? It's not good for you from a health standpoint, and it just plain sucks.

My advice is to find something you are passionate about and pursue it. Whether it's sports, games, girls, weight-lifting, whatever. Find it, pursue it, and you'll be looking forward to it.

Double Post:

Originally Posted by Eleo

But there have been so many times when I get fucked over in the worst way, a psychological sort of way. I often feel like someone, somewhere, is messing with my head. I mean, if I get robbed, I can just chalk that up to the kind of thing that happens to people. But there's a point where a set of coincidences can be so perfectly aligned (in a terrible way) that I just can't help but to assume somebody planned it. Or I can ignore that notion until something like that happens multiple times, then I just can't help to belive it.

But it's not that alone. It's watching my family members go through the same shit. They are all in a state of discontent, and mostly because they've been kicked in the nuts every time they've tried to move up. I understand that there are troubling times in life, but I guess I expect a point where you can ultimately succeed at life. I'm not saying bad shit will stop happening to you completely and you live in 100% happiness, but there should be a point where you can WIN. I don't see that in them. I see failure. And in my parents especially, I've seen that they've given up. To an extent this makes me give up as well. I've had the same problems over a smaller period of time so my trend may be false, but then seeing their trend carry on throughout their lives just kind of proves it.

I sorta of felt and kinda feel the same way. It seems little things coincidentally seem to go the wrong way for me. For example if I had a party to go to at 7:00 and I found out I had a work meeting that was going to be somewhere between 1 pm and 7 pm, it would start at exactly 7 pm just to fuck me over. That kinda shit happens all the time with me.

But in reality, there are people worse off than a lot of us. People fighting wars, disabled people, sick people, etc.

My philosophy since I was about 19, has always been that I welcome adversity. I crave it. Just so I can prove to myself and whatever "forces" are out there that it can't stop me, that it can't deter me. I welcome hate, I welcome dislike, I welcome adversity, because I know that it can't and won't stop me from being the person I want to me.

Instead of fearing this stuff you need to welcome it. Accept that bad things happen to you. I'm very much a "what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger" and a "why do you fall? so you can get back up" type of person. I don't let things stand in my way. That is why I welcome that type of stuff, so I can prove that it can't stop it. Sometimes that alone can keep you going. Just your determination to prove someone or something wrong.

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