Don't know what to do.

Yea man, to be motivated you need to find something that you really want to do so you can sink your teeth right into it and never look back. Everyone is motivated in different ways, but for me when I am motivated, I am insanely motivated. If I really want something I will never stop until achieve it and even if it is physically impossible, I am stubborn as hell and won't give up until I'm completely burned out. On the flip side, if it isn't something I really want then I find it hard to get motivated.

The same may or may not apply to you, but the point I'm saying is that it is easier for everyone to find motivation in something they really want. Figure out what you really want to do with your life. Sometimes it isn't easy(I still haven't figured it out), but if you can't find an answer then just go with what feels right and what makes you happy. Talk some things over with your folks, your wife, and the people close to you for even more advice. Think it through before you nose dive into it.

I personally think it is never too late to go back to school. You are in a tough situation, but that happens sometimes. Sometimes in life you have to take 2 steps back to take multiple steps forward. I know it would be hard for you to go back to school, but then again no solution is going to be easy. If you have caring and reliable friends, then maybe they can help you out with certain things if that is indeed what you decide. I usually hate asking for help, and I like to solve problems myself, but you are backed up into a tight corner. I'm sure if you have good friends that care about you, they'd have no problem helping you out with some things. I wouldn't with my friends.

Overall it is your decision though obviously. I just think you should highly consider going back to school. What does your wife do for income? Does she contribute a lot? A little? None? School gives you so many options for so many different types of jobs. Also if you find something you really want to do, then you can go right after it through school.

Just some advice. Cool down, think it through, and make the decision that most makes you happy and what feels right(both short and long term). Remember to consider the long-term options as well. Sometimes you gotta battle some tough times early on to start to get where you want to go dwon the road.

Jam it back in, in the dark.