Passive/Aggressive

I am one of those people that would like to be aggressive when necessary, but get repressed by the threat of being fired from work for the slightest outburst of anger or opposition to bosses or customers. I also have this odd tendency to be hesitant about stating my own viewpoint in defense of a course of action I had taken for fear I would be proven wrong. Since my job requires a good deal of technical knowledge (dealing with hardware and software issues in a corporate network), I am in constant fear I will be discredited for going gung-ho into an argument dead-sure I know what I’m talking about when I in fact have key facts wrong (and they replay with “I don’t think you know what you are talking about.”) I try to never release my frustration in those cases, but I’m sure as hell everyone can see it on my face (which always seems to turn beet red.) Usually though I know exactly what I am talking about, it’s just the fear of that response is so oppressive to me, I rarely get too bold in my arguments or assessments and the person I am working with on a problem ends up saying exactly what I had been thinking.

Outside of work, however I do defend myself quite vigorously if I feel the argument is worth pursuing. Usually though, I just ignore the situation as most people who bug me aren't worth the effort.

Jam it back in, in the dark.