Shadows of a Former Past

Originally Posted by NaklsonofNakkl

I have been thinking about this for some time now, and i am at the final step (asking fellow Gamingforcinans).

Basically the deal is this; in my past, things happened, not like 'rape or sexual harassment' bad things, but just unpleasant memories. I want to rid myself of them but i know that is impossible. So for my graduation i proposed i would do this once i said my goodbyes to friends and start at college (since none of my friends are going to the same college as me). When i get there i have the idea of taking the once chance to erase my past by never talking about it and when people ask, i tell them i cannot recall anything about it.

Now the problem is this, 1. I don't want my friends to think i hate them, 2. I don't want people to misunderstand this and just tell me to stop being stupid and just deal with a bad past and 3. i know this is stupid because eventually someone will remember something from your past and talk about old times, yatta yatta. What i am basically saying is this, i want to rid my past threw never speaking of it, but how can i do this without the problem of getting myself into a 'i lost who i really am' view and 'my friends think i hate them' problem? Any suggestions?

There's nothing wrong with forgetting your past. Problem is, anyone from that past must be forgotten as well. In order to completely ignore the past, it must be literally erased, so that you can start with a clean slate.

You have to be willing to cut all ties to people in your past in order to ignore the events of the past. If you aren't willing to do this, then you'll find your task to be difficult indeed. If you go through with it though, or if you need to in order to find happiness in life, then that's what you should do.

Follow your heart.

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