So I really like this girl part 2.

Let me get this straight: you have told this girl that you are going to put your love life on hold for her, and wait for her to be "ready", and what does she do for you in return? She tells you right to your face that she intends to keep playing the field.

There is a huge imbalance of power here. There is a huge element of non-reciprocity here, and that is what is hurting you emotionally. For a man to decide to commit himself to a woman should be a huge honor. It is something a woman should have to work hard for. In fact, she would rather work hard for it than have it given to her.

When you gave her your commitment, which she did not have to work for, she placed little value on it, so she did not even think for five seconds about reciprocating. You then made matters worse by offering to wait for her, which lowered your value even further in her eyes.

Something else in your post stood out: never believe for one second a woman who says she is not ready for a serious relationship. It's a lie they learn in high school. Women are biologically hardwired to want serious relationships moreso than men. If she says whe doesn't want one then this is secret code for meaning she is not ready for a serious relationship with YOU. Any woman who says this will readily have sex with and commit to the first alpha male or pick-up artist who comes along and knows how to make her feel sexy. (This is what your girl is holding out for.) She will then do things to that guy that you never imagined such a sweet, virginal girl could do.

These are all harsh truths that you must learn. I only recently learned them myself if that makes it easier.

How ya doing, buddy?