Death visiting your life

I haven't experienced much death in my family. The only one I can remember is my great grandmother, who I loved very much, and I was indeed very sad when she passed away.
We lived so far away from each other though, and a lot of our bond was lost in the last years of her life. Makes me feel stupid still that I didn't go and visit her more.

Other than that, no real family deaths... Almost all my mourning has been for pets strangely enough. We had a dog that I pretty much grew up with, and he died when I was around 12 or so I guess, I was absolutely devastated over that. We also had a pet bird at the same time, and when she died a few years later I was also incredibly sad. Funny how you can bond with your pets in that way.

Death is something that I am very afraid of, and I worry a great deal about it. Not so much for myself, but I am incredibly afraid of losing the people I love. The feeling that a friend or family member will be gone forever is very hard for me to "grasp". I know it's something one must accept, and I guess I will learn. But it really scares me.

Jam it back in, in the dark.