How do you handle your pastlife?

I make an intentional and thorough effort to forget anything from my past that I don't need to remember for academic/legal reasons. In my room are two photographs, my parents in Tennesse in the fall, holding each other (before they had me, grew old and got fat) and one of the dog I had from age 10 to 18. No siblings, no boyfriends etc ... I also don't talk about them, and I try not to think about them.

It's just hard to look back at everything you've lost. It's much easier to pretend like your history is just a backstory in the plot, something that mattered but no longer has significance. If I ever get nostalgic, it's for something natural that will never go away but will never be the same again, like rivers and mountains and seasons. Not experiences or people.

In that light, all my grudges died when I lost contact with the perpetrators.

Jam it back in, in the dark.