So I'm a bad guy.

Being nice comes easily to me, so I find it hard to relate. But I suppose I can share some of my methods of remaining nice even when people are trying my patience to it's out limits.

Use manners. If someone compliments, say thankyou. Hold doors open for other people. Stuff like that. Eventually if you get into that habit, you'll start to appear as that much less of a dick.

If someone engages you in conversation, even if you don't feel like chatting at the moment, exchange at least a few words. Don't just end the conversation by making some remark that doesn't garner a reply. 3 sentences at least usually gives off a more friendly and less dickish impression.

That's about all I can think of for now.

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also, megalith, I noticed as I was typing that you're member number is a palindrome. haha.
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Jam it back in, in the dark.

If an alcoholic says 'Hey I'm an alcoholic', then that means he's one step closer to quitting, but at that point he's still an alcoholic.

If a mean person says 'Hey, I guess I'm a mean person', then that means he's one step closer to changing, but at that point, he's still a mean person.

There's nowhere I can't reach.

Originally Posted by Hachifusa

I guess I'm also kind of wondering if you all think, however, what possible reasons for being a dick could be. Let's rule out the obvious (being a sociopath) and be more specific. It was suggested to me by someone that because I pretended to be a prick in high school, it became comfortable and usual to me and I became a prick. Which is possible.

That's a very reasonable assumption. When I was younger, I used to block out my pain by appearing overly happy to other people. I didn't want other people to know I was pissed off, or upset or various other negative emotions. So I would always dawn the mask of being fake happy. The more upset I was, the more 'hyper' I became. Or silly for that matter. It really backfired on me though. I sorta grew into that persona, and so now I'm this silly and annoying adult, whose antics tend to make him appear stupid. It's been a problem since highschool really. I tend to annoy the fuck out of people sometimes. All because I tried to be what I wasn't, and in the end I truly became what I was pretending to be.

What am I doing now to remedy this? Well, there's not much I can do. I've already made my impression on people. People already have a predetermined assumption as to how I act. So when I'm not acting silly and all that, then people always assume that something is wrong. So to alleviate their worries, I crack out with some stupid lame joke, a weird sound or a goofy face. Lately I've been able to control the stupidity to some degree, but I guess at heart I still am a child and to keep that all in probably isn't a good thing.

So perhaps from all that rambling arises a solution. If you just force yourself to be nice. No matter how hard you are inclined to act like a prick, instead force yourself to do something nice instead. It might seem fake and all that for awhile, but after awhile you'll get used to it.

So next time some kid comes up to you and says something, instead of telling him to fuck off, put on a smile, tousle his hair and send him on his way. lol.

This thing is sticky, and I don't like it. I don't appreciate it.