Thoughts on Marriage

I used to think that I might get married one day. Then I spent about a year in a relationship with someone, which is my longest relationship yet. That convinced me otherwise. We both changed so much, in that time... it just showed me that as people, we are constantly changing, and I don't think I could ever be sure that I'd be happy with one person for ever.

I guess that other people's experiences could well be different, but for me, I know that I'm not going to stay the same for the rest of my life. That means that I'll want different things in a few years. That makes it very hard to select a partner for life.

In the case of my ex-girlfriend, when the time came for us to split up, I was still very much in love with her. I'm pretty sure she was still in love with me too, but we had grown apart. It's not like I'm young, and still trying to find myself in the world - I'm a grown man, but I just don't stay the same, in terms of what I want, and what I want to do, for that long...

I'll never promise anyone that I can be with them forever. Instead, I'll tell them that I'm here now. That's all I can ever promise.

Jam it back in, in the dark.