How do you handle your pastlife?

I try to forget all the stupid things I've done (er... the anorexia, parties and the drugs)
But it comes back to haunt you.
And sometimes its hurts.
Especially when I see the people around me or the ones they love doing the very thing I used to do because I was there once and it destroyed me and those around me.
To see my friends do the very same shit I did makes me sad because they saw, they know how it fucked me up but they still go for it. They still drink, still smoke or snort meth like there's no tomorrow...

I don't think I'll ever forgive myself or forget what I did but I'm coming to terms with myself by letting people know that "I am who I am and I was something else once but now I've changed"

Jam it back in, in the dark.