Seeking Approval

I seek approval from just about anyone. I have fairly low self esteem, so that doesn't help too much in that aspect.

I try my hardest to make -and- keep friends, and of course I hope that they 'approve' of me. I've had lots of people talk down to me or act as if I'm not nearly good enough, so any approval I get makes me extremely happy. Of course, I have terrible luck, so most friends I make I tend to lose after a while. (Not by death or anything.. we just usually drift apart or I piss them off, etc etc.)

I also seek approval at my job. I try to do my best there, but never get recognition for it.

My parents want me to do perfect in school, which is difficult, so when I don't, I feel terrible since they didn't approve.

Meh, I didn't mean for this post to be so dramatic.

Jam it back in, in the dark.