Non-natives: what do you think about English language?

Well, since this forum consist of many people across the world, and most likely to be at least bilingual, this might be a good topic to be discussed.

I've been speaking english since 12 years old, this year it makes me 10 years already. But to be honest, I still couldn't speak very fluently like natives do and there are times when writing in english becomes so frustatingly difficult.

I remember a year ago I kinda inactive in GFF, and only wrote about 2-3 paragraphs during posting, that's not because I was too lazy to write anything. I was pretty unsure whether the grammar and structure of my words is appropriate.

But thanks god, since I recently started blogging bilingually, I've been able to write in better quality. I guess practice makes perfect. But most of the times, I tend to use present tense when I should write in past tense though.

I'm pretty confident with my english, games and novels were big help. I think RPGS is a very good media to aid someone improving their english. I have fair skill to communicate with other and writing academic paper. But there are also times when I couldn't understand the jokes of native people (like the ones in GFF), maybe because I'm still not experienced enough?

Anyway, english, even though it's fairly easier than most common languages, I think I will never be as good as native.

What about you? What do you think about english as your second language? how do you rate your english? Did you have hard time when learning english? How frequent you must think, write, and speak in english? Basically, say anything what you feel about your english skill.

Jam it back in, in the dark.