Am I dumb for wishing I loved someone?

Originally Posted by Eleo

I had fallen for guys in the past who made my heart sing

Not to sound like an ass, but maybe it's time you start expanding your connotation to what love is. I don't know about gay guys, but females who think like this tend to suffer from pathological insecurity complexes in which they expect emotional highs from love to fix some type of way; either that, or they regard it as "special" when it's actually pretty immature and dangerous. It's similar to a chronic substance abuser. They just want the high from the drugs, but don't bother improving the overall quality of their character and problems they're faced with in life. I'm not saying that the high is all that bad, but balance is the key to life.

Not saying you're doing this, necessarily. But maybe if you did some more deep soul searching you'll be able to find love and happiness with people without being dependant on those highs as much.

As for this specific situation, I'd walk away and start focusing on how I could improve myself. There's always room for improvement, and people tend to take a liking to such an attitude. It’s naturally draws people to you.

Jam it back in, in the dark.

Originally Posted by Devo

Anyway, SMX what are you talking about?

This is what I got out of his post: “There’s an all around awesome person in my life, who I want to love, but don’t because the ‘spark’ isn’t good enough.

Is that right? I’m starting to feel like I’m on different page than other people.

Anyway, I went off that assumption. I guess a simplified way of saying what I did is that sometimes when you can’t find that spark in a person, the problem is with you and not necessarily the other person alone.

There's nowhere I can't reach.