IDENTITY CRISIS!!!

I must honestly say I'm going through the exact same thing down to a T. I'm in college as well, going for a major in networking, and things feel pretty bleak and hopeless. After the second semester, I found the topics to be incredibly dry and boring. It didn't help that the instructor is a rambling idiot, either.

Right now I'm in my fourth and final semester, and I won't graduate because I've failed 2 classes, and well on my way to failing this entire season. Talk about hopeless.

I understand where you're coming from when you say that everyday occurances don't seem to have any kind of significance. Does it feel like the entire day has just passed you by and that you've almost wasted a day in your life? That's how some days feel to me. I don't have as meaningful of conversation with friends like I want to, and it leaves me feeling like I should have expressed and said more. I feel more introverted so I don't come right out and say what I want, even though I think I should say it. Also, I totally understand about the lack of interest in things like games and anime. I stopped with anime a few years ago when I met someone and wanted to become more mature. As for games, I've found myself caught between thinking that I should be doing something more constructive when I play them, but at the same time, I feel the need to sit down and play to relieve stress. In the end, I play for about 10 minutes before I shut the game off. I guess my interest for games really hasn't gone away, I've kinda realized that there are better things to do.

One thing I can add to brighten things, is that I've found what I want to do with myself. Even though I'm failing college, I want to be a web designer. Some friends and I have seriously begun the formation of our own web hosting and design business. The only thing that's holding me back right now is the immediate need for money from my current job. Things are really taking off though, and it's given me a lot of hope and confidence. I hope you can find the same.

In short: It's just growing pains and if you do a lot of things, you will find out what suits you the best. Finding that activity or hobby you like best will balance out the rest of your life.

Jam it back in, in the dark.