Negative feelings towards love...advice appreciated.

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Helllo all. I'm somewhat new here (first post) and just wanted to get some help and or advice from anyone. Sorry that this is a bit long.

For the past week I have been feeling reall miserable, I've started developing a huge crush on my best female friend, problem is she is going out with someone...my best male friend. And since they've pretty much my two closest friends I'm around them a hell of a lot, which makes ignoring these feelings soo much harder for me. Two weeks ago she told me of dificulties they were having and came to me for advice, and I gave all teh advice/help I could to make sure they would stay together and that she was happy, and although that was kinda a big conflict of interest on my part, I did the right thing and I'm fine with that.
Now I'm developing negative feelings towards love again though. I haven't really had any postive experiences in regards to love (my first girlfriend drugged and raped me, first crush after that is the girl I have a crush on now, and that crush did not end well for me; second girlfriend was too worried about everything and left me shortly after we started going out and pretty much the whole time we went out she made me feel like shit; third crush ended really badly because she led me on so much, only to pretty much say 'f u I don't like you creepo' and that left me quite heartbroken, and finally, there's this crush where I can't even tell her how I feel for her, which reallly really suckorz.)
I mean, I know I'm only 17 and that I have a long while to find love, but the problem is I've just had soo many bad experiences with relationships that I've gotten into the mindset that I will never find love and actually be happy. I'm aware that these feelings are because I'm partially jaded, but I don't know what to do.
And as for meeting new girls in college, I agree that there are going to be a lot of new people whereever I go to college;l but I really do suck at making new friends, to the point where I have just a few friends

You know, the way you feel isn't unusual for someone who hasn't been very successful with his first few relationships. The same happened to me. And I'm slightly older than you. I know exactly how you feel, the whole "fuck love" thing. A year ago, I would have agreed with you. But I've learned that having such an attitude will screw you up later in life.

If you can go one day without thinking about a girl, more power to you. But if you can't, then the "fuck love" attitude will only increase your cowardness and your fear of getting into a decent relationship as you get older.

You may just have to accept the fact that being with your female best friend will never happen. It's grim, but once you go to college you'll make friends and it won't be a big deal anymore. If you can't make friends in college, there's something seriously wrong. And unless you have a social disorder, I doubt there's anything wrong with you except your attitude.

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Look at it this way - if you go out of your way to attract a mate, then you're not being yourself, right? And a relationship founded on a false image isn't a sound relationship.

My god, you just said in two sentences what I've been trying to say for the last two years. I see people doing this all the time; they're different people when they have girlfriends/boyfriends. People want a significant other so much that they would change themselves drastically. It makes me want to puke.

Jam it back in, in the dark.