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Jun 20, 2008 - 11:27 PM |
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Well...I'm back? |
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So, Gamingforce. It's been quite a while since I last graced this particular place with my presence. What's it been, for those of you keeping track? I believe a year, perhaps longer. I now have a laptop with wireless internet, hence my being able to make a visit.
The past year has been rife with various different experiences, opportunities, pitfalls, and so on. I'm not completely sure where exactly to begin, but let me just get on with it.
For those of you who remember, I was involved in a church here in Columbus. I've since left for personal reasons - mostly disagreements and conflicts with the leaders and fellow members - and haven't gone back since. I found out that the particular home group that I was active in went under shortly after I stepped out, which wasn't such a huge shock to me like it was to other people. Immaturity and narrow-mindedness basically sum it all up. I was living in a ministry house that had an internet connection and, when I left, I only had my desktop and began living in an apartment by myself, working at the same job for 30+ hours. With rent, utilities, food, and other expenses, I couldn't justify adding another bill for internet on top of it all.
So what do I do with my free time nowadays? The answer to that is read...A lot. I've calculated it up and the total has come to 65 books in the past year. Literature, mostly. Steinbeck, Hemingway, Fitgerald, Bellow, Tolstoy, Paul Auster, and so on. It isn't uncommon for me to spend hours reading at the local coffee shop for hours on end, sometime reading a book start to finish in a span of a few hours.
For a year and a half, I had a very serious girlfriend. It's interesting to note, but we had been good friends for a couple of years before our relationship, and still remain so to this day, despite our mutual reasons for separating. She became pregnant by another guy and, a few weeks after her laying it all out to me one night, we became inseparable. I helped her and stayed beside her all throughout the pregnancy, sat through class after class, emotional ups and downs. I drove her (I've never driven like that in all my life) to the hospital that fateful day and, after a short labor of only four hours, I witnessed one of the most crazy and beautiful moments in this life as she gave birth to a wonderful girl. I don't care what anyone says, it's fucking beautiful and amazing. After that, I helped raise her daughter and am still active in both of their lives. I tell you what, nothing helps a man become such like helping to raise a child. I believe that I've matured and grown more in the past 13 months than in any period of my life.
Since then, as you can imagine, I've had a more active social life, making friends with new people, getting to know more about the people around me. Even that has been hard, because as we all know, the closer you get to people, the more opportunity there is for conflict and, well, drama amongst your various circles of friends.
I'm not sure how active I will come to be here, if at all. I plan to come around often, contribute what I can to discussions if possible, perhaps join #gfchat as a regular once again. But we'll see. For now, I'm content with meandering through now and then, resigning myself to feeling that I've already experienced my own Golden Age here already, yet not quite down and out. So, for now at least, here I am.
| Currently Playing: The Brian Jonestown Massacre - Who Cares Why |
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