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Aug 27, 2006 - 09:06 AM |
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Absent friends, and changes for the better. |
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Yeah, so I'm going to see about making a few entries in this here ChocoJournal, and see how things go. I'm still pretty new to GFF. Not in the sense that "new" is a function of time, but in the sense that I still haven't established myself. I don't really think that I've made many friends here just yet, but hopefully I haven't made too many enemies yet. A few times I've been told that my posts were stupid, or even that I am stupid, but that's probably because I wrote stupid things at the time. I can do better. I hope...
Two of my best friends are leaving soon, to go on a freeform trip around Europe. Obviously, that's an amazing, exciting adventure for them, and one they will clearly remember for the rest of their lives, and it's something that I kinda wish I could share with them. That's really not possible, though. For one thing, I wouldn't have the money even if I wanted to, and for another, these guys have known each other a lot longer than I've known them.
At the same time, while I would never want to keep them from going, it's going to be bizarre to not have them around. We've known each other for about 6 years now, and it's been incredibly rare that any of us have been away for more than a month, or so. They've always been there, never more than a short walk away, and that group represent at least 80% of my social life. Most of the group are still going to be around, which is good, because I really can't imagine what I'd do for fun if all of 'em were suddenly dissapearing. I'm sure you know how it is, though. A sort of "core group" accretes over time, and it's hard to even imagine any of the members not being around.
On the plus side, it's a time when plenty of other stuff is going on in my life. Good stuff, too. It's been very much a transitional period for me for the last year or so. While I wouldn't say that things were exactly bad, it's been the case that a lot of things were changing, and it is only now becoming clear what the eventual results of some of those changes are. I'm satisfied with the results, and I like to think that I've achieved meaningful change in my life. There's still a lot left to do, of course. Such is the nature of life, you can't ever say "that's it, I'm satisfied with the status quo," and keep it forever. Like a shark, we have to stay in motion, in order to remain alive. The thing is that now I'm not afraid of those changes anymore. I'm ready to face them with my head held high, and that's something that feels good to say.
Over the last year, I've had to perform radical surgery on my life. Like any surgeon, I had to cut away those parts which weren't healthy, and which would hinder the recovery of the whole. That can be painful, but in time, it will make me stronger. I believe the surgery has been a success, and while I'm not fully recovered yet, the prognosis is good.
Does any, or even all of that sound emo? I really hope not.
| Currently Playing: Jose Gonzales - Veneer. |
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